Everything's Gonna Be All Right

So I finally had my first real conversation with Shawn today in which I wasn't hysterical or pissed. I think we're gonna be all right. We talked for a while. I'm still hurt by what he did and how he did it, but I think I'm gonna be able to get over it. As long as we remain friends and keep in touch we'll be fine. That's what scared me the most, I thought I was going to lose him as a friend too. For a while he didn't return my calls because I think he was afraid I'd try to win him back or yell at him or something. I'm not like that though. I don't want to be the bitter, angry other guy. I wished him well, and I meant it. I gave him my blessing and told him just to be careful. It was nice to hear his voice again, and he promised he'll keep in touch and that he'll definitely come visit me occasionally if I move to Texas.

I'm finally all done with exams. It's so surreal that first semester is over. I'm glad, but at the same time it's also going to fast.

I had to get up early this morning to go down to Johnson Elementary and observe. It was awful. I almost died walking back up the hill. Well, I almost passed out. It was so cold. I didn't know how cold, but when I checked upon returning to my room, it was negative two degrees. That's why I almost passed out. Geez, Texas is looking so good right now.

I can't wait to get home and sleep in my own bed, but I know after a week of being home I'll be ready to go back. A month is too long. Hopefully, Mallory or someone will come visit me.

Quentin's coming over tonight, and I think we're going to watch Mysterious Skin. I'll let you know tomorrow. Talk to you later!!